I have been doing a lot of thinking, and recently my thankful attitude has been shot. Of course I face daily challenges; maybe my home life isn’t very heart warming, not too many people want to know who I am or what I am about, I am insecure, and I am ironically so unbelievably happy. And you know something? It’s okay. I have no one to impress, just one God to serve. So, I have a confession. I gave my life to the Lord a few months ago. His grace and love have been working in areas in my life and heart that I once thought were irreparable. The one thing I continually let detour me on this journey is my biggest fear, my loudest sin, my biggest secret. I have been beating myself for making this commitment and change and not being able to just shut my eating disorder off. As I am growing in Christ, I am learning that this is not what is expected of me. Change takes time, and He wants me for all I am. He wants my struggles, pain, laughter, happiness, all I have to offer, and as I grow in him, I can also slowly grow out of this. Words cannot begin to explain the gratitude I feel to have the blessing of going about this in front of the most loving, forgiving, steadfast man this world has ever had to offer.