Today I had to face the awful truth I had only thought was made up in my mind. Today, my mother told me I am not enough. Today, my mother cried as she compared me to other daughters, my friends, to let me know I am not all I should be, Something you must know is that she doesn’t know what I am. She is oblivious to the nights I spent purging in the shower at 1 am, the refusing to eat dinner, the lying, the stories, the protection I have tried to make for myself. I am crippled by an unknown fear of the words that would escape her mouth if she were let in on my past, my present, myself. I am sitting here at my computer to vent to absolutely no one and my hands are shaking, and God, I might just break at any moment. What do you do when you hear something like this? My mind cannot comprhend what has just been told to me. So, here I am. I am not sure how I feel. Empty, lost….no idea what to do. If anyone is out there, just please know that you are worth so much more than anything anyone ever tries to put on you. You are worth more than the downgrade people hand you, you are more. You are so so much more.