Today

You know when you have one of those days where inside you are falling apart, but you cant help but feel thankful for all that you have? You can’t stop smiling at everyone else’s happiness because you know how it feels to be in a darker place and you would never wish it upon anyone else in a million years. These strangers, with their stolen pasts and broken dreams, they walk down the streets, trying to keep up with their kids, they work 9-5, they take on every aspect that life has given to them. They never gave up on their life. And you know, it really is quite admirable. I feel so humbled when I see these people. They remind me that I really don’t need to act like the entire world is against me. Sometimes when I walk down the street, I wonder if people can see right past me and see the quivering girl inside. Some days I am too afraid to look up from the ground, but others I feel as though nothing can stop me. I own my look, myself and everything that I am. Today was not one of those days. Today I want to cry. Today I want to curl up in a ball and not let anyone touch me, I don’t want anyone to know how much I am hurting, and I do not want to let anyone in. Today, I am afraid, and I am tired. But there is always tomorrow, and maybe tomorrow will be bring a brighter sun.

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One comment

  1. The Mount · October 5, 2015

    Touching and true – I hope you find the light soon. God bless x

    Liked by 1 person

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